This game? It is video game addiction, yes, true, I've known this for years and with other games. But, it turns my brain off, specifically rumination and stressful angry/sad thought loops. And that is a good thing, unless it has been a particularly bad, day, week or worse several months. I've not been playing a lot, until yesterday. I've been attempting to face "it" head-on, but now, feeling like a deer in the head lights that has been run over, in this case by news media, and stupid ass stuff going on in the world, the majority of it instigated by ye'ol shit-for-brains with his ass-hole shaped mouth, that spouts nothing except for bull shit. You alive and old enough to witness news since 2015 till now 2026, you know who I mean without me even naming him.
So? What's happening in the game? I've taken to collecting and loading structure block instead of entire region chunks.
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| 4 structure blocks, 3 out of 4 are 48 x 48 x 48 |
The area is region error generated hole, with some crazy cloned edges, and a 5th structure block up on top of the cliff, it's a garden of course. The structure blocks in the hole are sand and red sandstone, pale forest (the smaller than 48 wide for some reason block in the center), Orn world, and flat green walled hub.
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| same area, image pulled back into green ring |
Look how fast the sun sets in Minecraft, anyways, the error produces these 16 x 16 chunks, in survival I built forts in them, added dirt and planted trees and built that stair up, a long time ago, years, like 2023 is my guess? I added the structure blocks, those are new, and the crazy purple cloned edges were 2024 I think? Maybe last year? Not sure now.
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| little blue "yurt" |
This is not near the center regions, this is on the edge, several hundred thousand blocks away. There's nothing else there. I went there to use up inventory, and then didn't feel like it. Is is fun? No, then do something else. I used up some trees, a bit of blue cement, etc... and then moved on looking for that hole to test out placing my new structure blocks.
Since I have done the math to know I can't physically build or even visit every region in a trillion block area during my remaining life span. Inventory and "owning" the area I have modified, has shifted more into focus. This "yurt" is kind of cozy because it reminds me of someone, my old Tai Chi teacher, from way back in the 90s, I know that he would be like "What?". But, it doesn't matter. I was/am supper bummed and disappointed by the world/people in general.
It's one of those the more you know, the more you can't put all the bad things back in the box, Pandora's box IMO in our own skull. You can't unlearn bad stuff about the world, death statistics, or poverty or prison solitary confinement stories that break your heart, because they are minors, right now, "developing" their perspective of the world of adults while in solitary confinement. What are they going to do/think when/if they get out?!... So fucking tragic and depressing. Such a waste of a life!... It makes me so angry, butterfly affect, all our asses, you idiots!!!
Huge *sigh*... so, I don't know what I'm doing anymore, and I do know why I play video games, and now what?
March 9th to March 11th, I read, and read, and read, a lot, on a variety of topics. And logged in here today to report that while I still don't know what I'm doing, I'm not feeling as angry as I was two and a half days ago.
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| this is a side rail, not connected to the 'M' rail here |
The 'M' rail is the million block rail that runs from zero to 1,000,000 blocks. This side rail, the mostly yellow one goes from 25,000 to 100k along 500 instead of zero. There's a 500 block connecting stub from M to the 500 rail at 25k. And there's another connecting junction at 100k for 1,000 blocks from -500 to 500. None of this rail is new. Well, the stub here leading away from zero is. There are two cities or rather one city and one town away from the center core, both the city and the smaller town are connected with loops of significant distances from 'M' and back again.
So? I mentioned a town and a city? The town I've been using as a mass teleport hub, there's small apartment tower like buildings, originally built for villagers, and now have been "gentrified" so there's 2 or three mapped teleport hubs in each of the units. I've filled three towers from the entry door at ground level to the top floors, and am about 3/4th of the way up a three unit wide complex like building. And there are two more of these and several other tower buildings in town that I haven't filled with hubs yet.
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| screen shot of one city map hung in an apartment unit in town |
Most of the tp hubs in town are not for the city. The reason for a tp hub town is to get to remote locations from another remote location without ridding the rails for over a week, or walking for months, or rowing from island to island for who knows how long.
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| night screenshot of the city building in the above map 1/4 turned clockwise |
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| it's somewhat of a maze for survival players, on purpose |
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| the center of the spiral stair leads down to his hole over water |
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| jump/fall into a pool above 4 way rail intersection |
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| each rail goes some distance, there's no signage |
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| the rail going East ends here several regions away |
March 14th,
Decided to import the rail from the old world.
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| don't know how many years old this rail junction is |
It was funny to see it again. Added a few of the new blocks, the tuff with a spiral is new, the copper lantern. But, mostly left as I left it and after connecting these sections of rail with regions imported from two other worlds, structure block bridge, and some minor cloning. Moving on to whatever seems like fun to do next. Oh, and I mentioned the bridge. Another one of these across a region wide "moat".
March 15th,
A couple of my new set of structure blocks make for interesting way-up hubs. The water surface of my Flat Sea lvl world is at -38. The grass surface of the flat green layer cake is at 9.
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| Two 48 x 48 x 48 block, "structures" (stone, dirt, trees, garden etc...) placed next to and cutting into my "tall cake" cliff. |
So blocky and not pretty, but... it's Minecraft, the entire game is "ugly", no matter how one textures it, IMO. It's just near infinite digital Legos. And, my one rule? Is it fun? Yes. In a controlled, not having to step on any Legos or clean up my toys way. It is fun, and relaxing.
March 25th,
Taking a break from the news has really helped my mental state a "billion" thoughts worth. Just 10 days so far and feeling much more sane. I confess, BFF played Jon Stewart's Monday Daily show episode on Tuesday, and we also really like Josh Johnson, and Desi Lydic, and Jordan Kleper, and Ronny Chieng... geesh we didn't watch all of them this week, or I didn't, just a bit of Jon and Josh then turned off the YouTube. I was like, "meh... oh well". What have I been doing in Minecraft while the TV is streaming?
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| A dark cave island with a portal |
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| a few more structure block way-up hubs |
And a bit of "gardening", again.
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| massive survival garden with cloned piles of blocks |
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| same spot, 5 days later |
There will be a village here and a wall eventually, but I build until I get bored, and move to the next area. You can see wall posts for the future garden wall in the background, just a few blocks usually added 64 at a time, until I think of something else to do. The ugly survival house didn't take me 5 days. There's foundations for several other buildings started behind it, and to the right of my checkered arm. I think it's funny how, if there's nothing in your "hand", ... are those two slots in the arm skin the hand? MineCraft skins are strange. Well, my skin is for sure. I should put more orange or yellow on the edge of the underside instead of that light green, but I always forget until I see a screenshot of my avatar.
Meanwhile, reality? A lot of things.
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