This game? It is video game addiction, yes, true, I've known this for years and with other games. But, it turns my brain off, specifically rumination and stressful angry/sad thought loops. And that is a good thing, unless it has been a particularly bad, day, week or worse several months. I've not been playing a lot, until yesterday. I've been attempting to face "it" head-on, but now, feeling like a deer in the head lights that has been run over, in this case by news media, and stupid ass stuff going on in the world, the majority of it instigated by ye'ol shit-for-brains with his ass-hole shaped mouth, that spouts nothing except for bull shit. You alive and old enough to witness news since 2015 till now 2026, you know who I mean without me even naming him.
So? What's happening in the game? I've taken to collecting and loading structure block instead of entire region chunks.
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| 4 structure blocks, 3 out of 4 are 48 x 48 x 48 |
The area is region error generated hole, with some crazy cloned edges, and a 5th structure block up on top of the cliff, it's a garden of course. The structure blocks in the hole are sand and red sandstone, pale forest (the smaller than 48 wide for some reason block in the center), Orn world, and flat green walled hub.
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| same area, image pulled back into green ring |
Look how fast the sun sets in Minecraft, anyways, the error produces these 16 x 16 chunks, in survival I built forts in them, added dirt and planted trees and built that stair up, a long time ago, years, like 2023 is my guess? I added the structure blocks, those are new, and the crazy purple cloned edges were 2024 I think? Maybe last year? Not sure now.
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| little blue "yurt" |
This is not near the center regions, this is on the edge, several hundred thousand blocks away. There's nothing else there. I went there to use up inventory, and then didn't feel like it. Is is fun? No, then do something else. I used up some trees, a bit of blue cement, etc... and then moved on looking for that hole to test out placing my new structure blocks.
Since I have done the math to know I can't physically build or even visit every region in a trillion block area during my remaining life span. Inventory and "owning" the area I have modified, has shifted more into focus. This "yurt" is kind of cozy because it reminds me of someone, my old Tai Chi teacher, from way back in the 90s, I know that he would be like "What?". But, it doesn't matter. I was/am supper bummed and disappointed by the world/people in general.
It's one of those the more you know, the more you can't put all the bad things back in the box, Pandora's box IMO in our own skull. You can't unlearn bad stuff about the world, death statistics, or poverty or prison solitary confinement stories that break your heart, because they are minors, right now, "developing" their perspective of the world of adults while in solitary confinement. What are they going to do/think when/if they get out?!... So fucking tragic and depressing. Such a waste of a life!... It makes me so angry, butterfly affect, all our asses, you idiots!!!
Huge *sigh*... so, I don't know what I'm doing anymore, and I do know why I play video games, and now what?
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